Timing

I am horrible with words and explaining things, which is why I could never be a teacher, but I wanted to share my thoughts. Today we went to a good friends' baby blessing which was wonderful. One of the speakers talked about Heavenly Father's plan and a time and season for everything, etc. I turned to Brandon and said "WOW..this talk is for me!" It really got me thinking all day about timing and how it affects and has a lot to do in our lives.
Just yesterday we went to Seven Peaks with my family. Cara and I were sitting there waiting for everyone to come back and some guy was leaving and was very nice to ask us if we wanted his tubes! WOW! Talk about timing and being in the right place at the right time.
Coming off the freeway and heading towards home trying to make every light green all the way up 45th South is all about timing! (although it never happens).
There is nothing better than hearing your favorite song on the radio to make your day just a little better! Or how about having to wait for the rain to stop to make a dash to your car to not get wet. Or how about just missing that horrible wreck and thinking if you would have been just seconds earlier/later it could have been you! Or how about when you are down and need someone to talk to just as a friend calls. A lot of things that happen in life are about timing good or bad. I truly believe that EVERYTHING happens for a reason whether we find out the reason or not. Heavenly Father really does have a plan for us and is looking out for us whether we want to see it that way or not! I have for sure learned that everyone's plans are so different and no... sometimes it is SO not fair, but we really are being looked after as long as we are trying our best!
In college, I had wanted to be married so badly. I couldn't figure out what my problem was, but my Mom kept telling me it was all about timing. I was sure that there was no way I was going to find a husband working at Maddox ALL THE DANG TIME! She kept telling me over and over to give it time and that it wasn't the right time. Well.. little did I know.. Brandon (my prince charming) was right under my nose the WHOLE TIME! We always talk about how weird that we had worked together for so long and nothing ever happened until 2 years later. I can now look back and see the reasons why--one being that I honestly don't know if I would have finished school if it would have been earlier and that was a very important goal to me! Even though I can see the blessings of how this situation worked out and it really was all about timing I still am not fully cured of my doubts and concerns. I wish I could be, but I am happy to report that I am making some progress!

I have always been able to feel the spirit even more through music. Yesterday while doing a lot of traveling in the car we listened to sounds of Sunday and I felt the spirit so strong and it was almost like I felt a big giant hug from my Heavenly Father letting me know that everything was going to be okay and to just hang in there!! What an awesome feeling! How can you not believe in the gospel when something so powerful like this happens!? I know it was probably because of my wonderful and loving family also...I really felt and appreciate your love and your prayers!! I will be okay and one day my dreams will come true! It is all about timing and it just isn't time right now! I keep trying to tell myself that and not worry about what I want so bad right now but it still is so hard! I am just so glad that I have such a wonderful companion by my side to go through this with and that is so patient with me! I couldn't ask for anything better! He is my rock and is sometimes the only thing that can calm me down! He is always there to let me cry in his arms and listens to me and never asks questions!
I am not a patient person at all.. I can't stand waiting in lines, I can't stand waiting for people, when I want something I want it NOW and I don't want to wait, so timing and patience is something that I really need to work on and I think through this experience I am really learning a lot about this very thing and a lot about myself. I am so grateful for these experiences that have helped me to become a stronger person!
I have learned that as much as you try to plan your life.. it really is not up to you.. all you can do is try to make your decisions through listening to those promptings and by doing what you know is right and all else will fall into place! Although life is not fair and probably never will be, I have learned to accept what I have been given and move on with life as hard as it might be. I truly feel so blessed for the opportunity to increase my faith and my testimony and feel so much closer to my Father in Heaven!